Over protected

I realized most people from my family see me as a young boy. They do not trust me with things, believing I cannot take decisions on my own. Like WTF.

I have to admit, my father was being over protective of me. Most decisions in my life are made by him, and I have to go through him also for some minor things. Eventually people around me, especially my uncles and aunts still see me as a young kid. I never get treated like an adult, my opinions never get attention, my feelings are never bothered.

I do not know whose fault was it. Ever since I was young, I was always afraid of my parents. They restrict me on everything, and I was always afraid to break the restrictions. Call me a mama's boy or a coward, it is the same in my case. All the way till now, every single thing I do, I still ask them for permission.

Form 6 did not help much either. I continued to be inside a shell, because the school environment is protective too. I became a lazy person, never a risk taker, and rely on my parents or others to get things done for me.

Today unfortunately, I heard a cousin commented about me being not sincere about going to aus, because everything was done by THE father. I AM STILL FUCKING PISSED ABOUT THIS COMMENT.

Truth is I wasn't given a chance to shine. My father handled most things for me first hand because he was afraid I would not manage them. Another thing is I do not have financial independence. Every transaction is done with his account because he did not trust me with his money. He is forever being afraid of me being not able to handle things, or afraid I got con by people etc. Hello? I never get the chance to prove myself! I was not even told much, kept in the dark because to them, I will never understand their language, pretty much like a small kid.

This is bad. Very bad. Why are my parents being so over protective? Why they do not fully trust me, eventhough I'm 20 now? What kind of impression I give to my relatives and cousins? The boy who never grew up. Everything you want from him, ask his daddy. He does not know a thing. His daddy handles for him.



NO. I WILL PROVE YOU ALL WRONG FROM NOW ONWARDS. YOU WILL ALL RESPECT ME THE DAY YOU KNOW THE REAL ME.