Enjoying life?

Looking at other people’s blog and profiles, I felt so jealous seeing people enjoy life. When was the last time I enjoyed life?

I think it was back in form 2. Everyone was so friendly. I had the best-est friends in my class. Missed the times we laugh, missed the times we play football together. Everything went well until I said a wrong joke. I still can’t believe it ruined my entire high school life. It was the starting point of all my miseries.

I think you know who you are. I’m deeply sorry if you ever read this. The statement I said then, was just, really meant to be a joke. I did not know you would go on from there. I lost everything that day and I didn’t realize. All the way until 3 years later another friend told me about what I’ve done then. Imagine that. 3 years of ignorance. And the world crashed down on me that day when I knew the truth.

Oh well, I wonder when will I enjoy life again.

I’m gonna listen to you Michelle. Study real hard for now or risk hating life forever. At least if I study hard for this year, I can maybe at least suffer for only this year. As for being positive, I doubt I can be anymore, after all the things I’ve been through all these years. I will still try, I promise.

Is there anyone who can ease my pain for now? I don’t mind even if you can only offer to ease a bit.

Anyone out there, please?
Save me?