Quiting fb is easier said then done. There was a time when I only logged into fb once a week, then it became once a day. Now it is once every 15 minutes on average. Whenever I boot up my Chrome browser, first thing I will be clicking is the fb bookmark.
It might seem harmless, but the time accumulated on visiting that cursed website could be hours a day. What do I do there? Mostly "catching up" with friends' lives by checking the newsfeed. Reading status updates of my favourite people, viewing new photos and watching some interesting video links friends posted. Yes, "catching up" - the artificial sense of being updated with every friend when not talking to them every other day. Viewing photos can be fun I admit, but more times it made me miserable seeing someone ballin' in the high life while I am not.
To be honest, I also secretly yearn for lots of notifications. Notifications equals virtual attention, to make myself feel better that I am not alone. Posting status updates and cool video links, hoping to get likes and comments as approval of doing something right.
Is that really important? Does getting many likes and comments make me more popular and like-able? Heck does it even make me a better person in real life??
No, they are rhetoric questions if you didn't know. I know it is ridiculous, but hey, everyone is immature until they have an epiphany. Mine just struck, and I decided that I need to get rid of the pest - fb.
However deleting fb is too hard a decision to make. I am now seeing fb as a logbook of people that crossed the path of my life. Whether for 5 minutes or for a few years,there is this plethora of memories and friendships that I just can't shut them off overnight. I admit right now most friendships are just stretching like a thin string if not completely lost. I am really lousy at keeping friendships.
There is this fear that a lost friendship may be rekindled, or a life-changing event may happen involving some old acquaintances. But because my account is deleted, they could not reconnect with me. Not having an fb account is like wiping myself off the social grid. This is just what bothers me the most when I think of deleting my account.
I might not delete my fb account for now because not having an fb account somehow portrays me as a complete shut-in to new people I meet. It is funny to know everyone seem to rely on fb as a main social networking tool. How the fuck did fb became so integrated to real life social networking? I wish it was more like the old days, when you just keep in touch with a handful of people you really care, not having to worry about 1000+ friends who "might magically" become important to your life in the future.
For now, I will try to log in to fb on a minimal basis. Best if I could just log in once a week, wish me luck!
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