Summer updates

It is all in the mind. I need to calm mine. I waste too much time thinking and worrying a lot. Sometimes I wonder if we are living in this world to test our perseverance on detaching ourselves from too much worldly affairs. It is all thoughts from our mind that causes our own suffering, and happenings around us are catalysts to the thoughts.

ANYWAY, sorry for making so many philosophical posts. I been thinking a lot, which I shouldn't do so much. IT HAPPENS WHENEVER I TRY TO CONCENTRATE IN FRONT OF A BOOK. lol. If you find the posts inspiring (I highly doubt it), great we are best friends! If you find it boring, I apologize because that is all I can share with my life.

Maybe I should drop a quick update with my life. I am doing summer school again for the 2nd time with the same reasons as the 1st time. I miss lengthy holidays already. For the past 2 years the longest I ever got was 3 weeks, and I didn't rest well that time too because getting to go back to Malaysia means catching up with heaps of friends, and yet I left out a few. I think by now some networks will be broken and too late to be mended, because I am always bad at maintaining friendships.

Back to topic, I am already 2 weeks away from the much dreaded summer school finals. It's been 2 weeks or more since I tried stopping gaming completely because I find no benefits from it anymore. It doesn't make me a better person or give me an edge in real life, I wish I realized it sooner, but it's never too late. So after stopping games, I started chasing Top Gear episodes - I have too much free time. At least watching about cars gives me hope of getting rich soon.

Most of my friends are not doing summer, so other than going for classes, almost all the time I am in my room. To tell the truth, I kinda enjoy the solitary life. My dad was afraid of me turning into a hermit, fact is I might. lol. The world is a weird place. Full of hypocrites and people telling you how you should live your life. I wish they hadn't invent facebook too because sometimes when I browse profiles and photos, I develop low self-esteem. The only reason I still keep an account is so I can still have a window to peek outside of my fortress.

You might think I am going crazy soon. I THINK I AM TOO. :(