Sydney

To the people who still read my blog eventhough it got eff-ed, you got nothing better to do is it? ..........Hahahaha just kidding! Actually you guys are plain awesome. Miss you all a lot! =)

Well I have been really good! If you ask if uni life is awesome, my answer is yes and no. I think the part which I enjoy the most with uni is the amount of freedom I have. I do whatever I want and whatever I like, but the only things that restrict me are time and money. Assignments are flowing in a constant rate, but unlike in school, I need self-motivation to complete my work. Lecturers or tutors wouldn't bother to chase for submission of uni work, but missing deadlines means losing essential marks for finals. As to money, I think this is the only thing left that my parents can still use to control me. =/

Have I changed? Well maybe not a lot, but at least I don't look like a bloody tourist anymore (lol), taking pictures of every nook and cranny I see. Took me a while to blend in to the new life, and absorbing the fact that I won't be spoon-fed everything like in my high school years. Let me break it down into a few stages: 1. A week after I arrived, I started to miss everyone at home, and the life I left behind. I know that when I go back someday, things will never be the same again. It made me emo somehow. 2. Then I started to wonder did I make a right choice. Is this the path I'm suppose to choose? Do I belong here? And there were a whole lot of "what-if" questions bugging me. What if I went to UM? (I can still be so close to my family and friends and live a life without worrying about money constantly.) What if I went to NTU? (I'd make more friends without feeling inferior because of skin colour. - in other words, meet more asian babes... xD). 3. Gradually, I realized there's no turning back. At the same time I am starting to love Sydney. I met a few awesome friends who reminded me of how much I wanted to restart my life during high school years. This, was what I want.

When I think back about the days before I left, it was all so fast paced. I only had a month to prepare everything. There was this mix of excitement and fear of stepping out of the comfort zone I was held in for 20 years. I am glad that I took up the challenge, or else if I'm in the other 2 unis I mentioned earlier, I would still go thru the same stages and regret why didn't I came to Sydney??

As for now, the thing I miss the most and has been eating me up slowly inside is.................................................

THE FRIGGIN GOOOOOOOOD MALAYSIAN FOOD!!!

I CANNOT BLOODY BELIEVE I CAN ONLY EAT THEM ONCE A YEAR! WTF!



Haha. Well life still moves on. I just have to get better in cooking a pot of poop-like thingy and make it taste more Malaysian. =D