Dull, but not colourless

My life is ever so dull these days. So I was busy occupying myself with the previous games from the mgs saga. Oh no. I'm turning into one of those introverted people who only sits at home to play games all day. Well I'm going to sit at home anyway. Used to think life sucks this way when no one bothers to ask me out. But for years being in this situation makes me not to care anymore. Just too tired to feel sad or isolated always.


It was then I've learnt something new.

I don't have to expect too much from the people around me. I don't have to hope too much. When it fails to meet my expectations, it makes me feel disappointed. Actually all I need is just contentment. Appreciating the things I have now. Keep things simple at heart.

And then my life turned three hundred and sixty degrees.

Bad people filled my past, but that was what I chose to believe in then. If I choose to ignore those creatures, would it even matter?

I posted this last October:

"I’ m a nobody not because of bad luck.
I’ m a nobody not because god has shunned me.
I’ m a nobody because people around me made me feel so.
I' m a nobody because I believe I’m one.

It' s a cruel world because of the way I trust and hope too much."


I choose what to believe in at the end.

From now on,
I choose to stay cheerful, by not expecting too much from life. X)